it's been quite a while since i blogged. Life had been rather hactic,barely had time for myself to rest until thursday when i decided to take some rest at home,away from school,work and everything. Anyway friday wasn as bad as i thought it would be.Infact it turn out pretty great ^^ Aft eng lesson was bio practical,which kind of drag our time from gng for speechday rehersal. after which zining and i headed to valen's house to change and all and off to bugis. Met up with bby, lyn and ahpau. Went to sakae sushi to eat,it was good (Y) Anyway,walked arnd bugis alittle before realising that we've not enough time to reach school in time,so we took a cab. Speechday wasn really that bad,had a great time catching up with zining. I guess its been so long since we had such a serious talk,i mean half the time we're talking rubbish. Anyways after speechday headed to plaza sing with valen,zining,janice and bby. Ate LJS for dinner ,its been quite awhile since i ate that : ) got home feeling really tired and all. Life has been hactic,but it have been good. I just have to get used to it,that my life will not be alone anymore. I really hope the cycle of me myself being alone will be broken,though sometimes i still really miss those times when i really live in my own world,sleeping throughout the day ,doing my own things and just doing random weird things when im bored and most of all, less emotional towards anything since the world was just revolving around myself. Now i sound like some loner ,maybe i guess i was.

This morning,bby came to find me knowing that i was not fine at all. Been caught up thinking and crying alot . It's hard to explain why but im sure im much more better now. I really thank god for bby,someone who really cares and loves me so much. Even valen and zining who just got to know him ystd says that bby really loves me alot. I'm sure that i've made a right choice. Despite having to bare all my sensitivity,my moodswings and all those times that i flare up on you cause i've a bad temper,you still hold on to me. Thanks bby. I'm feeling rather upset not because of what you did that made me feel upset but because i'd been thinking on how much you care about me. Willing to not go out with anyone else for me,sacrifice your time for me but yet what i do is trying to find in time for my friends and etc. How you always give in to me but yet i flare up on you easily just because of small matters. How much you care about my feelings when i really do not know anything about you and jump into conclusions and always end up mistaking you. And sorry that im really bad at words,not typing out words but saying out words. Im just used to bottling up everything i guess. Too used to being alone and not being cared nor understood at all.